gah.

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had a fight with brianna tonight. heh, it's funny, she's always bri to me until i get angry, and then she's brianna.

i thought i'd come on ranting about that but... i dunno. it was a while ago. well, heh, not quite two hours, but since then my fury's dimmed and i'm left kind of exhausted by it all.

strange thing is now in retrospect it was a damn good day in literal and metaphorical senses. i had a good time. i had fun. even now looking back on it there are moments that make me chuckle. and then there are moments that make something in me collapse on itself because i love her so much.

having a fight does ruin some things, though.

it was pretty dumb. in short it was cuddle time for bri and personal time for damon, and it kinda went downhill from there. she doesn't yell or rave; she was actually quite polite about it all, but she suddenly wanted to go home. so i drove her home. it was a long silent drive and i was stewing.

coming back though, it was a full moon tonight and the freeway was just... blue-white-grey, streaking by. i was angry so i was going 90+ mph. i was rushing to get home. but i still had the presence of mind to turn off the headlights in this one stretch, this empty stretch on the 280, and it was beautiful, dim-bright with the moonlight, the mountain lake off the side of the freeway, the closest headlights at least a half-mile behind me and trailing off fast.

so i guess that's what i wanted to set down. the juxtapositioning of it all. good day/bad fight/love my girl/hate the moment/moonlight on the highway.

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